All posts tagged: findyourtrueself

Pokhara

After all my hiking at the Annapurna I have had just 1,5 days left to see another city. Ok I must say I just don’t want to spend another few days in Kathmandu and just wait around to fly to the next destination. A lot of hikers have sad that I would love Pokhara. A city full of art, self-made stuff and a beautiful lake. It sounds awesome and believe me the first arrival was again not that nice. Our bus has had a lot of delay (It was dark and we have had no clue where we are) we don’t have had any hostel booked and a group of 3 just running around and searching something. Yes we have got a bed. But I would never recommend this hostel. On the internet it says with breakfast and Wi-Fi. Yeah, we just let it stay like that. The next day was awesome! I was meeting the guy from yesterday’s bus drive and we are starting to explore the city. More like the street around the …

The Quaterlife-Crisis

The last few weeks or better month, when I look back, I was searching something but i was not knowing what. I was trying to come further in my carrier starting with applying for some training on the side, getting some projects starting and also getting out in the evening and trying to meet some new people. The results were the same. I was still having this feeling that I miss something. So the searching was going on. Finally, when I was sitting in work having the last 5 min of my break and again trying to find some new stuff what I could do, I found an interesting article. I was soo fascinated about it because it described directly what I was feeling all the time. These nagging feeling what I have. And there it was. A Name. The Quarterlife-Crisis. Yes, you can laugh about it. But it was really what I feel, I can imagine and I know also from a lot of friends that they have the same. But for your better …

The Women Part

The women has fought to vote, The women has fought to work, The women has fought to be independence.   And still we have these responsibilities. I have realized it in my travel and as older I get more and more people are asking different questions. Questions who shouldn’t get asked when you could decide over your own life freely. Some of these questions are: When do you get your next boyfriend or better husband? Do you want children / when are you getting children? Do you not want to start a stable job and get a family and house? Get serious! But why is society expecting from us women in the age of 25-30 to get serous? I know a lot of guys who are 30 and still playing their online shooting games, changing jobs every few months and just enjoying life. Why can’t we do this? Why should we get how you call it serious? Society says we should have the same rights as man. Yes we are working like man but only …

The End of the Worldtrip

What a weird feeling. Just a few days left and my WorldTravel is finished. Then I will have a few days more and I will sit again on my desk, smelling the morning coffee and starring on my screen. Today it was the first day that another traveler has sad “I am sorry” to me because my travel ends. But why? I must say yes it feels really weird to know that I will have a flat at home, a normal job and also some hobbys (my horse), but I am pleased to have had this amazing chance to see the world. I am more than happy what I have experienced and I know by myself it will be not the last big travel I am doing. (I already plan the next big, a bit different trip) On the other side I am glad not to plan day by day, not to search the next hostel, the next food store or the next washing saloon. Not to know if you can shower in the next …

Do i want a normal life?

Have you ever thought about what you really want ? I want to travel, to see amazing places and have crazy stories to tell. But than an inner spine is coming who says no, society says you should be married, have children and a house. How are you handling it ? I was talking yesterday to a friend and he just was saying: you don’t want a so called normal life. You want to experience everything and you don’t let yourself stop from something. I was really surprised because I was thinking I am way more quite in what I am doing. I don’t go bungee jumping or skydiving. OK I am afraid of heights, but still. I am traveling slow and also enjoy more time at one place. My last travel was fast every week 1 or 2 city’s, every tour I could find and I was nearly scared to miss one piece of it. You can say I get older because I don’t need (what for a crazy word, you never need or …

Dreaming and creating the life of your dreams

Today I want to talk about another topic! Your dream life. Since we are all small we are dreaming of the life we wish we can create in our future. Some wants to get married and kids, a big travel, a big car or house, others are dreaming of that job to gain their millions in their bank account. What are your dream? The reality hit us most hard after school or sometimes a bit later after the study. Mostly than the dreams are staying dreams. The job is not that good what we are getting, the travel is too expensive or the man they are searching just don’t exist. Everyone from my friends know that I have plenty of dreams in my head, but they were just dreams. I was loving to talk over them but that’s it. How to start? I was reading one really nice book what was just called “mindfulness”. Jep that’s the title. Every day for 30 days you sit down and meditate for 10 min. It sounds like nothing …

It is not enough!

In other words comparing! It is the feeling that you are never good enough and never will be good enough because there will be always someone who is better. I have had resent these feeling. I am currently traveling and everyone was saying to me: “you have the best life ever!”, “I would wish I could do that too!”…. But in these one moment I was not like yeah that’s true, I really rock my life. I was more like hey dudes, why are you thinking that this is something special what I am doing? There are other people out there, they are having a carrier and traveling. They have travel blogs, YouTube channels and make a bunch of money with it. The travel was not enough anymore for me. I wanted to have more! Do you not also have sometimes these feeling? Someone has a better body like you, more money, a better job, a better family or boyfriend / girlfriend? You try to catch up with these people but here comes the hard …

It is OK to feel bad!

What you don’t expect will happen at a time you can’t Imagen! Anger, confusion, scariness. These feelings are not allowed in our society. Everyone is talking of how to fake it (happiness) till you make it and yes there are a truth inside of it but sometimes its just not working. What’s happen then? Falling in a deeper hole and question it, why you can’t fake it ? Felling worse only because you have a bad day? Nooooooo And when I could, I would scream it into your face. It is OK to feel shit after a breakup. It’s OK to feel angry after loosing something or someone. It is OK to question yourself. It‘s OK!!!! When you don’t be aware of these bad feelings, they will nagging on you, you will feel them over and over again because these feelings are there, and they want you to accept them. They are a part of you, so don’t cut them out. Go and get your ice, your pizza or go partying. Whatever you need to …

Dreams and how to live them

What a start in the day! I was just walking to the main station to get my train and off course was again really excited because I have had a new idea. So I was telling my friend about it and was stopping. The text I was writing was more like: Yeah I know another idea from Stephanie…. And here it comes. I have amazing ideas but that’s it. I stop with pushing them further. It’s just the Moment. I know it’s a gift that I have the idea and …. stop. Metaphorical you can say you’re in full speed running but stopping straight because there is a small puddle in front of you. So you are turning around and go back home. That’s maybe the best description what I can give. That’s what I am doing my hole lifelong. Some ideas are coming they pulling me so strong to them, that after years I fulfil them, but more than 98% getting lost in the ocean. So what is the plan?  Start your time management. …

Where is my passion gone?

Today I was working again on my website. I need to learn way more but I start really to enjoy the process of creating it. Mostly I was doing the writing thing but jep, you need to know how to do some software stuff too. After a few hours I was starring on the clock and couldn’t Imagen what’s happen. I have forgotten the time! Since a long time I was doing something with so much passion, that I really have forgotten the time. Yes I really couldn’t Imagen it. Should not every day be like that? Full of passion and stuff what you love? So I was asking myself where is my passion gone ? When have I lost it? And the answer was so simple, in the routine. The routine of every day! It is something good in one way because you can organize everything and you don’t must be worried that you miss anything. But in our days there is way too much planning and organizing. Everyday looks like the same. I could …