Have you ever thought about what you really want ?
I want to travel, to see amazing places and have crazy stories to tell. But than an inner spine is coming who says no, society says you should be married, have children and a house.
How are you handling it ?
I was talking yesterday to a friend and he just was saying: you don’t want a so called normal life. You want to experience everything and you don’t let yourself stop from something.
I was really surprised because I was thinking I am way more quite in what I am doing. I don’t go bungee jumping or skydiving. OK I am afraid of heights, but still. I am traveling slow and also enjoy more time at one place. My last travel was fast every week 1 or 2 city’s, every tour I could find and I was nearly scared to miss one piece of it.
You can say I get older because I don’t need (what for a crazy word, you never need or must see or do anything) to see everything. I am happy what I can see end enjoy it.
Is it fake when I say I want to settle down or if i just need a short break?
Yes, you need also holidays from traveling. Not a lot of people are telling you that but traveling is sometimes exhausting. You need to plan every few days again where you are sleeping, where to find food, can I wash my stuff or do I survive till the next hostel. It takes a lot of energy out of you. I am such a type of person when I am traveling i never give me a resting day. Resting day means for me washing, planning and working on my photos. That is not really resting. I was happy when I was on the farm and I have had a “normal life”. When you can say that. It is more like not packing your backpack again and off we go. I really could rest and I know because of this experience that I love to get to a slower travel than I have done already. Just maybe one part of a country and that intense. I was also able these time to life with people from the country I was traveling in, this opportunity’s gave me a complete different experience than only the hostel life.
But what is my conclusion. Do I want a normal live? I don’t know? I think maybe that some people love to have a steady life but others are in the world at home. I know for myself that after 6 months or better 2 weeks of normal working life I will go crazy. Sitting in an office after such a long time traveling will be a hard time. On the other side I am happy to get all my travel posts online and can start some ideas to become reality.
In the end I only can say that we will see what life shows me on my way.